Trust

I went to yoga today in the midst of a stressful morning. 

I was about 20 minutes late to class, as I had to wait for a spot in the gym childcare to open up for Thommy. (Oh, January gym goers, I will outlast you!)

The important thing is, I got there.

I crept in quietly, and gently unrolled my mat. My fellow students were on their backs, in the middle of some leg exercise I'd never done before. But in this particular class, I expect new and unfamiliar. 

I lay down on my mat and followed along. I didn't know what I was doing. I didn't know why I was doing it. 

I was there, moving my legs, looking at the ceiling, in yoga class and that was all that mattered.

Everything, everything, from the morning melting away. Or rather, released. Wow. Why was it so easy?

Then it came to me: I love yoga, I love this practice, because I trust it. Implicitly. I'll try nearly any pose, any chant, any breath, any exercise to see what happened. With complete trust in this teacher and in yoga.

And I trust that no matter what happens in the practice, I will learn something from it. I will be happy that I showed up.

I can come to my mat and go into mental and emotional freefall because I trust I will be caught. I may go through the day feeling like nothing more than a bundle of atoms held together by the force of attraction, but I know that in yoga I can let go and I will not scatter. I trust. 

I realized, as I moved in and out of poses, what a vital and necessary thing it is to have places of complete trust. 

Tension releases. Hackles go down. Jaws unclench. Defenses, gone.

Trust allows release. Unbounded creativity. To see and be seen, completely and clearly. 

So much of life requires demands on guard. Second-guessing. Analyzing. Selectively sharing. Or does it?

Where do you find spaces of complete trust?

xoxo Maeg

 

 

 

 

Comments

[Sarah]

This is such a hard question to answer Maeg, and i don't know if I can! While I mull it over, I loved your description of yoga class. I would love to gain that sort of trust in yoga too. Going to start taking more classes soon and also look for what's the best "trust oriented" exercise for me- I think I might try out zumba! I've started to look at exercise a different way- not a waste of time where I could be doing something more creative or productive, but a place to relax my mind and help my body which will in turn build creative stimulation.

[Maeg]

ooh! i havent tried zumba yet but ive overheard the classes while they pump the jams. they play rihanna! i think i need to go to one of those as well...sounds like a cure for january in new england! :)

[Tamara Like Camera]

I love this and I don't know if I have an answer. It's not that I don't have a space of complete trust, it's that it changes sometimes.

Either way, your description is making me sign up for Prenatal Yoga!

[Kristen]

Beautifully written! I felt relaxed just reading that. I feel that way in ballet class, especially at the barre. I love it! I would like to try yoga one day soon.

[Maeg]

Yay thanks Kristen :)

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[Ana]

I really want to start doing yoga!! :) I am stressed a lot and I need an outlet! This post was super inspirational!!! Thank you

[Maeg]

Youre welcome! :)